So the semester is almost over. My second semester of college
(technically really my third) and I find myself here, sitting in my
living room with a previously empty draft page, not knowing what to
write, but for some reason I feel compelled to. I suppose I've just been
feeling a little emotional lately. Who knows. Perhaps if I kept a more
updated blog it wouldn't be a huge mystery, but I don't find my life too
interesting to write about. Here I am at 19, a regular person, no
accomplishments, and nothing to offer.
What am I expecting of myself? What is interesting enough to even mention on the internet?
I'm not interesting. That is the problem. But I'm here. I'm here, and there's no reason to be here.
I'm consistently stuck in a loop between thinking I am the best person in the world, and the most worthless, and it's killing me.
You have a lot to offer. you don't realise it just yet. And your not worthless. Never think that!!. You put to much expectation on your self and when you don't live up to it. You make yourself feel worthless, when your not!!. you being the sweet, quirky person is what it's important to those that are the most important to you. Never forget that. your a smart capable young woman, accomplishments will follow. so don't give up hope!!.
ReplyDeleteyou are interesting. so don't think you aren't.