I'm pretty sure this is cheating

But this is what I did on Wednesday.

Horseshit and Youtube

OH HAI BLOGGER
It's been much too long, I know. I just can't stick to habits, or projects. College has been keeping me busy, but I've been on holiday for about two weeks, so I have a lot more free time, (although I mostly use it to watch television and movies). I feel like I've been doing too much of this though, so I think it's high time I get a little productive, even if its writing a little bit on a blog only read by one other person. In addition to this I've made another video. I didn't really put too much effort into it though. It was filmed on an impluse and without a plan, so it's me just being eccentric about worthless junk, to be honest. Editing didn't take long either which is weird because I thought I worked better with a plan, but apparently that's false soo... yeah.
In other news, I've sort of been in self torture mode lately. Not only self torture mode, but family torture mode, I can't stand living with these guys anymore. Honestly. I just can't. I need space. The only reason why I'm not going insane is because I can lock myself in my room, but soon that's going to be gone, because we're moving in the winter to a two bedroom apartment (rent is SO MUCH more expensive in Glendale), which means Gabriel get's his own room, and I'm stuck in a room with my prying Mother and Sister, and I don't even want to imagine. If I feel like I need space here I can't even imagine over there... and where the fuck is my keyboard, guitar, books, and clothes going to go? Where am I going to get privacy? And what's worse is, if we don't move I'm stuck taking the bus at 6am every morning, and getting home at 5pm and I just can't have another semester like that. I don't know what to do, but I can't help imaging 2012 is going to be complete horse shit. anyway, here's the video, enjoy me being wonky I suppose.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=QtpumizaABY

NaNoWriMo, Vlogging, and D&D

Hello Blogger!

It's been a while no?

My apologies. Between finding the time to write, and finding something to write about my participation in this blog has been... well... at a bare minimum. Writing has never really been my forte after all, which is the reason why I'll never ever ever participate in NaNoWriMo EVER. If no one reading  knows what NaNoWriMo is (which is probably a very small amount of you) I'll post a link to their website and you can read up on it.
I would recommend participation to anyone though... you know ...excluding myself, because it's essentially a worthwhile thing to be a part of.
I just don't have the commitment, time, or desire to participate which sucks for me because it seems like such a neat idea.

anyway

I've been sort of playing with the idea of watching Star Trek  or even Battlestar Galactica. I've been really interested in scifi lately, you know, more then the usual Mimi would..

I've also been nerdy enough to suggest to myself the prospect of learning how to play Dungeons and  Dragons and like forming a group of friends who also enjoy Dungeons and Dragons and sort of hold d&d parties every other week where everyone would just come over and play and like possibly hold d&d drinking games? ..Yeah. I know. What is my life? hahaha.

I've been nerding out a lot lately. Which I really don't mind. But again, I don't really have time for any of that stuff, unfortunately for me.

The fact that I'm getting braces in less then two weeks isn't going to help my 'nerd' situation either. xD

Whatever. I'll fit in at Comic Con. That's enough for me. xD  

I've also been really wanting to attend some sort of Film Festival lately. I miss watching and studying movies all the time. Which reminds me, I have yet to see Donnie Darko *bows head in shame*.  I've been meaning to in ages.

These past few weeks I've taken up vlogging and I've decided to upload videos on a regular basis, as opposed to every other month like I was doing before. Vlogging is sort of fun for me. It feels natural, and I just really enjoy it. Plus editing is so much easier now considering I was using shitty windows live editor and a crap quality webcam as equipment. The webcam I'm using now, isn't as terrible, and imovie just makes everything easier, although one day I'd like to upgrade to final cut x pro.

But yeah. I think I'm going to stick with vlogging, even if my videos aren't very fancy shmancy, and no one really watches them. 

I'll link my channel in the bottom as well as the NaNoWriMo info, if you'd like to see.

..Well I think that about covers a few things that has been on my mind lately.

uhm.. thanks for reading?

Yeah. End that awkwardly, Mimi. Why don't you.
:P

LINKS

NaNoWriMo 

http://www.nanowrimo.org/whatisnano

My Youtube channel 
youtube.com/mimzwashere


ByYyYyYyYyYyyYyYYYyyYyEEEE

I'll be fine.

Hello Blogger.

Its been nearly 3 weeks since I've posted anything new but hey, life isn't a movie I don't always have something exciting or interesting to write about. Although this may be, I have a bit of catching up to do.

School has been somewhat rough academically. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing fine. It's just that some of these classes can be somewhat draining. One of which physically. I take a running class in college and I literally feel as if my legs have fallen off, and as if I'm missing one of my lungs after every class. The class is intense. Really intense. At the very least, even if I'm not physically in good health I've improved. At the begging of the quarter I could literally only run 3/4 of a lap and it felt like I was in immeasurable pain. But by the third week of school I ran an entire mile without even having to breath hard. The run felt very light and somewhat relaxing. I also take an audio production class. This class comes pretty easy to me in terms of lectures and note taking and studying those notes. We have a project due next week in which we have to mimic analog recording (the way that recording was done before Tommy Dowd advanced the system). We basically have to record an infomercial live without any editing at all and it must reach 30 seconds on the dot. This may sound easy but to get everything completely right is somewhat of a challenge (although I'm confident I'll do perfectly). Aside from opening and setting the proper settings on pro tools and assembling your materials (which includes writing your infomercial, finding music to fit the background,  a person to speak for you, and booking the recording studio) the steps of recording this infomercial are pretty simple. It's a matter of timing that can get a person busted. Piano I is pretty simple. Nothing I haven't learned before, so that class will definitely an easy A. English 101 is alright. I'm doing all right in the class. The assigned readings are actually pretty interesting and lectures themselves are pretty enticing. I still have about two more essays to write (according to the syllabus) about the current book we are reading, which I am not happy about, obviously xD but it'll be fine. I also have to attend 3 library workshops for this class (I've already gone through one) and I'm not very happy about that either. Women in Literature ( a class I took to fill 12 units) is my least favorite. I do not like the teacher at all. I absolutely hate the assigned reading she assigns (although I read them because I must) and her lectures can be somewhat enticing but its my last class on Tuesdays and Thursdays followed after my three hour morning class, and by the time I get there I'm already dreaming  of my bed. Furthermore she's assigned us a four page essay on 'Visions of Creation: Consider Mary Shelley's framed tale, Frankenstein, The Modern Prometheus. At its heart lies the Monster's Lament. How do you make sense of Shelley's choices in the characterization of the 'fiend,' his creation, and the image of 'the male mother/creator/giver of life'? What do you think she was trying to say - consciously and perhaps unconsciously?
I suppose this could be an interesthing write, but I am not keen about writing this. At all. This assignment is due on Thursday. I'm planning on skipping this class on Tuesday just so  I can spend Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday writing this rather then trying to do it when I get home (in which case I am always extremely exhausted and too drained to function).

Other then worrying about school things, this weekend has been pretty lovely although simple. Friday I spent in relaxation, reading through most of the day and sleeping. Saturday was spent its usual way and Sunday I finally was able to buy the macbook pro I've been wanting since forever. 


Aside from that news I've been brainstorming a couple of new projects which I hope I can get into action as quickly as possible, but they're still on their beginning stages and I have limited time, because of college, homework, and trying to juggle reading four books this semester (two of which are assigned [a walk in the woods, cousin bette).  The other two are The Hunchback of Notre Dame and Les Meserables, both written by victor hugo, both I am extremely keen to finally read.

Welp. I think that covers most of it, although I know I've probably left out a couple of things, as I always do. xD

Thanks for reading x

I Am Freshman.

Hello Blogger!

This past week has been hectic and very busy indeed. Strangely the only free time I've had this week has been at school. This Monday I started a new chapter of my formal education at Glendale Community College. College so far has been a good experience for me. I love ALL my classes (almost), and I actually don't dread studying or completing homework. College has been great.

This quarter I'm taking five classes. On Mondays and Wednesdays I have Running Aerobics, Piano I, and English 101. Tuesdays and Wednesdays I have Audio Production and Women in Literature (bleh). Both days classes go from 9:10- 3:05. Although, this is because of my bus schedule I arrive at school roughly around seven o'clock and I don't get home until sometime around five. In addition to this I sometimes have 2-3 hours in between classes depending on whether or not the Professors decide to let class out early. I don't really mind this because it gives me extra time to study and classes. The only downside is that I often find myself bored, and by the end of the day I'm completely knackered.

I don't have many friends at GCC. Well to be honest, I don't have any friends. Period. I have made a few acquaintances though. You know. Just those people you talk to here and there. One including a Swedish exchange student in my Audio Production class. She's really nice, and actually very interesting. Her English is superb by the way.. There are others like her who I only talk to here and there, but there isn't anyone there that's a solid friend. Luckily this doesn't unsettle me at all. I don't mind sitting in the grass by myself, or walking around campus on my own. I'm just bored. ALL the time. I'm constantly looking for something to do.

Like the other day, on my way to one of my classes, I couldn't help but notice that outside the music rooms in the halls, there are about 8 baby grand pianos aligned next to each other in their own little soundproof cubicles. The next day one of classes let out about an hour early, consequently leaving me at a three hour break in between another class. For the first 40 minutes I just sat in the library and studied my required reading. After a bit I was sick of the indoors so I went outside and sat on one of GCC's many hills. I tried to fall asleep underneath a tree but to no avail. I was probably there for maybe an hour trying. At one point even I texted Tina about how monumentally bored I was, and within two minutes I  got a call from her, (She's such a sweety) and when I answered all I could hear was my favorite Strokes song blaring through the phone's speakers. That was all I needed for a small pick me up. At this point I was in a musicy mood so I headed to the hall with the pianos. Upon arriving, There was a sign on the cubicle doors stating that I must sign in somewhere to utilize the pianos or risk getting banned from using them, so I decided to walk into one of the office looking rooms nearby to ask where I could sign in. As I walked into one of the rooms I came across two people. One female filling out a few papers at a desk and a man, not much older then me (maybe 4 or 5 years) looking after the equipment in the room. After a moment I inquired as to whether or not this was the place to sign in to use the Pianos. The woman looked at me and mumbled something about being busy and walked away. Bewildered I was about to walk away when the random man says 'excuse me, do you need help?' at this I repeated my question. Our conversation henceforth went along the lines of this:

Me: Where can I sign in to use the piano's outside?

Man: Here. 

Me: uhh okay, can I sign in then?

Man: Sure. ..You have to cross the entire school, battle a dragon, and retrieve the king's gold, first.

Me: (I'm so confused at this point) I..would I need any special weapons to embark on this journey?

Man: Yes. You'll need a battle ax, a shield, a renaissance helmet, and your GCC I.D or Driver's license.

Me: ..I don't have an ID.

Man: aw. Sorry I'm afraid you can't use the Pianos until you get one

Me: ..What if I left you my wallet

Man: *laughs* you cant PAY me.

Me: haha I'm not paying you. Just hold my wallet as collateral. 

Man: *laughs again* Sorry no I can't. But you can get your ID here (pulls out a GCC and points me to the right building)

I mention this because it was probably the most interesting conversation I had had all day. It certainly made me wonder if its going to be like this for the rest of my life.

Although this was, at the end of the day, in spite of being okay about being friendless at school, the lingering notion of loneliness that hangs over the atmosphere around me can feel unrelentless, but instead of being brought down, I've been given a sense of enlightening independence and moreso emmence gratitude for the friends I already have in my life. They are the best people in the world and I'm so glad to know them. Even if I only get to see them ever so scarcely.

As a side note, I GOT MY POTTERMORE LETTER ON MONDAY WAS SORTED INTO GRYFFINDOR!!!

I understand, Ginny.

Hello Blogger. It's been some time; I know.  I apologize, for lack of material,  but in my defense nothing of large importance, or interest has happened. Or nothing worth blogging for that matter.
In a sense I've been questioning who I am. Well.. not really who I am, but what I am. Actually no to be more clear, I've been fearing what/who I am. For years I've considered myself a Gryffindor ( I know what you're thing *blehhh omg Mimi and Harry Potter again*) but in all seriousness, as any Harry Potter fan, we've all sorted ourselves into houses at a young age, and have been dedicated to whichever particular house we believed to belong in. As a child, I always considered myself to be a Gryffindor for various reasons, but I also believed I had some strong Slytherin qualities. Some that could rival with the Gryffindor ones really, but in the end Gryffindor was the only one that seemed to fit. (Not even the fan-made 'Slythendor' seemed right). And I've been content with that.

But as any Potterhead would know, Pottermore is among us. When a person gains entry into Pottermore you get a wand given to you, and you 'go to Hogwarts' and get sorted. In that sorting, you're given a quiz, written by J.K Rowling herself, which would determine which house you belong to. After you are chosen into a house, that is it. There's no turning back. You must accept that house because it was designed for no mistakes. It is the ultimate sorting. Not some random online quiz where the answers are obvious.

What I'm fear is being told I'm not something I thought I was.

In my heart and mind I know I'm a Gryffindor. But what if that's otherwise? What if I'm a Ravenclaw? or worse a hufflepuff. (I mean no offense to Hufflepuffs, but I have very few hufflepuff traits that would just be a nightmare come true)

For example my Gryffindor traits that apply to me would include: 'Daring, Impulsiveness, Passion, Honesty, Loyalty, Impatience, Stubbornness, Nerve etc,

Slytherin: Ambition, Cunning, Shrewdness, Strong Leadership, Self preservation (sometimes) etc.

Ravenclaw:  Creativity, Individuality, Intellect, and resourcefulness (which is also a Slytherin trait)

Hufflepuff: Loyalty. That's it.

In the end , when I've outweighed all these traits and qualities I've always felt like a Gryffindor. Always. I'm just afraid of 10 years of being a Gryffindor to just disappear. I'm just so proud if belonging in this house. ..but I guess I'll never know until I get sorted.

But I guess on the bright side, it's just like those kids in the books who wait years dreaming of hogwarts, waiting to get sorted, just like we're waiting. The same anticipation. The same curiosity. The same feelings.

I hope this whole Pottermore thing is all worth it.

Perks, and Broken Bones. : "I hope its the kind of second side that he can listen to whenever he drives alone and feel like he belongs to something whenever he's sad"

This morning, (or rather yesterday morning) when I looked at the date on my mobile, I couldnt figure out why 8/11 seemed so vaguely familiar.. All throughout the day it was like a welling up mystery in my mind that was on the tip of my toungue. All I knew was that 8/11 seemed to harbor some sort of importance or significance in my life, and I couldn't put my finger on what it was. But instead of asking anyone (like the unbearably independent person I am) I swallowed up my curiosity, left the thought to the back of my head, and went on with my day.  Incidentally later that day, I decided to lo through a bunch of ticket stubs I've collected over the years, in a box that I keep hidden in one of my shelves, containing memorable keepsakes of my adolescent life. As I was skimming through, I came across a ticket stub for warped tour dated August 11, 2010. It was then that I realized that a year ago today (technically yesterday) that I had broken my right clavicle, crowd surfing at Warped Tour, and spent the whole day in the hospital, in Pamona.

I only mention this because its strange that even though I took no note, or even bothered to remember the date of this event, my sub conscience would choose to remind me of the years' past event. Bizarre isn't it? I'm not very surprised though, because I do consider that being a day of large importance, because it ultimately messed up my entire summer, but enough negativity.

I've been reading this book, 'The Perks of Being a Wallflower' by Stephen Chbosky. I feel like mentioning it because I've absolutely fallen in love with it. It's such a charming, honest, beautiful book. This character, Charlie, the things he says, or rather narrates is so immeasurably profound and mind boggling. Its refreshing. The author has definitely done a great job writing it, and I'd recommend it to anyone.


Here are just a few of my favorite quotes:

 ”Dear friend,
I am writing to you because she said you listen and understand and didn’t try to sleep with that person at that party even though you could have. Please don’t try to figure out who she is because then you might figure out who I am, and I really don’t want you to do that. I will call people by different names or generic names because I don’t want you to find me. I didn’t enclose a return address for the same reason. I mean nothing bad by this. Honest.
I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn’t try to sleep with people even if they could have. I need to know that these people exist.
I think you of all people would understand that because I think you of all people are alive and appreciate what that means. At least I hope you do because other people look to you for strength and friendship and it’s that simple. At least that’s what I’ve heard.
So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.”

“We accept the love we think we deserve.”

“And in that moment, I swear, we were  infinite.”

“I am very interested and fascinated by how everyone loves each other, but no one really likes each other.”

“Sam and Patrick looked at me. And I looked at them. And I think they knew. Not anything specific really. They just knew. And I think that’s all you can ever ask from a friend.”

“Sometimes, I look outside, and I think that a lot of other people have seen this snow before. Just like I think that a lot of other people have read those books before. And listened to those songs. I wonder how they feel tonight.

In one part of the book, this character Charlie mentions he's giving his friend Patrick a mix tape for his secret santa gift. It got me thinking of how considerate, and thoughtful receiving a mix tape would be. Just imagine, a whole disk of selected music created in intentions for you. It just seems so lovely to have a person say 'hey, I bet this person would enjoy this song, and this song reminds me of the time when this person and I..., or this song makes me think of this person'. I've always wondered if anyone ever thinks of me when their listening to  music. I don't know, I would just be so gracious if I ever got one, that's all.

Anyway sorry to leave with such incomplete thoughts. I haven't been sleeping well this past week and I think I should head to bed, except knowing me, I'll give up and probably be back online in 20 minutes, but I'll be in no fit state to write flowingly, as the above example shows.

Lets have a contest. How dull was your day?

The last two or three days have, you guessed it, been uneventful to say the least. Mostly I have just been catching up on reading and studying for a permit test that I have to take on Monday, (Yes I realize I'm three years late on that but driving is over rated anyway.)

Yesterday (Friday) Tina, my Mother and I went over to Glendale to go dress shopping for my cousin's wedding that will be taking place on September 4th. We shopped for hours in a multitude of different shops and I was literally unsatisfied with every dress that I tried on. I guess I'm just a little fastidious about what I like to wear. In the end both Tina and I picked up 'back up' dresses, in case we couldn't find any later, when we try going shopping again. My back up was long, silver, mermaid dress. Tina's is similar to mine but the design and all in all structures of both dresses differentiated greatly. Her's was red btw. After we bought the dresses, we ate Panda Express (well I did. My mother and sister hate chinese) and scuffled home. When we arrived I decided to film a vlog for youtube and worked on that for the rest of the night.

Today, which is a Saturday, was spent in boredom. I woke up around 12ish and went to my Dad's house with my Brother and Sister. We were there until 4 eating Pizza and grapes (weird combination right?) and watching movies. DURING WHICH I SAW A COMMERCIAL FOR HOME ALONE II MY FAVORITE MOVIE EVER. Anyway, after that we basically just went home. (which means all I've done from then on was read 'Wuthering Heights' and edit the vlog I filmed last night with the somewhat incompetent windows movie maker) . Its uploaded by the way, but I don't see a reason to link it here.

Anyway, Tina is bugging me to give her some attention; She wont leave me alone. I cant even proof read this.
So here's to being a nice sister and signing off early.

Bye Bye. :)

Obstacles.

This summer, has been extremely uneventful. For the last few days all I have been doing is running errands, chores, and killing time. I have absolutely no purpose for this summer that I can fulfill. I have no money to spend on the things I need/want,  no means of transportation to go anywhere on my own, and I have way too much free time then I know what to do with.

Its frustrating that I have so many goals, SO many projects that have yet to be started, but I lack all the proper resources to start any of them. Its unbearable and irritating when I KNOW I can achieve and do so much for myself, but because of the silly and frivolous obstacles around me, I cant do any of it.

For example, for a few of the projects I want to start, I'd need money right?
Okay well asking my Mom for cash isn't going to work because she rarely gives me pocket money, so even then saving is out of the option.

So whats my other option? I could get a job.
Oh no, but wouldn't I need a resume? Okay, no problem I have one written, EXCEPT I DON'T HAVE A STUPID PRINTER TO PRINT IT OUT.

And even if I could get it printed, I'd still have to battle with the odds of someone hiring me, but even THEN, I cant work because of college, and my current living arrangements. 

Perhaps if I had a car?
Wouldn't work. I have no license.

Even if I had a license, I'd still have to worry about paying for insurance, other car payments, and gas, which unluckily leads to my lack of income and need of a job.

And this is but ONE example.

Understand my dilemma?

Its quite the vicious circle, if you think about it.

Computer woes.

So I've been wanting the macbook pro for like ages, and I finally get enough money where I can get one with a student discount, but no0o0o0o0o0o mother has 'lost' about $700 of all the money I had saved up.

This is the last time I ever let my mom hold on to my cash while I'm away on vacation.

sincerely, someone who needs to open a personal bank account.


..they just look so nifty T_T

The list.

As I awoke this morning, This first thing that popped into my head was the amount of activities and 'goals' that I have to achieve this morning. Last night, as  I was going to bed, I honestly thought I would just decide to relax and do nothing all day, but this morning I kind of realized I've been doing that the last few days. I haven't been working on any self or home improvement. So today, I've decided to keep myself busy, in a less lazy type of way.

In no particular order:

1. Shower
2. watch ITV's 50 greatest Harry Potter Moments
3. Clean my room
4. Sweep the floors of my house
5. Read a good amount of a new book that came in the post yesterday called 'Fever'
6. Wash the dishes
7. upload photos from a memory card (I found an old memory card from when I was in 9th grade, should be interesting)
8. Exercise for an hour
9. etc. :)

I cant think of anything I might have to do today, but at the moment I already have planned out that 2, 1, and 6 will be completed first.
Also every time I complete a task, I will go back and cross out what I have done, so I can visually see how the process is going.

That is all.

Two steps forward one step back; Starting all over.

Hello blogger, and nonexistent readers.
I suppose, your here for some insight, on the wonderful world of Mimi.
Well.. I suppose, if that's what you're here for this is your place ...as well as mine..
for I am here for related reasons.
In the past, I've taking 'blogging' for something other then it was.
..well at first, I was on the correct path. Live Journal was working out great,
my old diary had quite a handful of personal and somewhat unprofessional literature..
I was even using Tumblr, for what it was originally created for.
But alas. Off the tracks I went.
I stopped writing in my diary, shortly after an injury in summer 2011 which resulted in
the immobilization of my right arm due to a fractured collar bone, Tumblr became reblogging
central, and Live Journal? Well.. that never survived more then 5 entries.
So yes. Even though, I was a consistent Tumblr 'blogger', It was never really blogging.
I've lost all that time to document my life, to meaningless scrolling, and clicking.
So even though I have Tumblr, it has never sufficed.

This was my motive for creating this blogger account.
I want to go back to my roots, and write about my life legitimately.
Nothing more. Nothing less.

And to be completely honest, writing this entry alone has felt more fulfilling, blogwise, then tumblr ever has.

Also Lizzie, if you ever read this, thank you for indirectly introducing blogger to me. I'd rather

write on this site then go back to my emo posts on Live Journal. :P